Settlement Day

Today I hardly spent anytime with my kids as they were at school and day care. I went to work and I was feeling so stressed even before I left the house.

Today was settlement day, finally we have brought an investment property and today at 2pm was the day that we settled and I got keys. There always seems to be a drama going on, why can't anything ever travel smootly. My stress today was whether we would have enough money to issue the cheques for settlement of it all. Both my husband and I put together all the funds that we had in all accounts and money that we had in our wallets and purse and put it all into the main account for drawing of the cheques, my fear was realised when we deposited all funds and I was still $100 short, I had $100 in my purse for fuel, bread, milk and to pay for day care. However I had to use it and now I have nothing, well actually I have $50 in my other bank account but I need to leave that there for a couple of direct debits that will be coming out. I probably sound as though I can't manage my money but in actual fact I'm very good at setting a budget and allocating funds for bills etc, its just that I counted on some money that my husband had been paid by a client and even though I told him that we would probably need some of those funds, he went ahead and spent $300 of it on ebay auctions. Grrrr I was so mad when I found out, that $300 could have been what we had to live on for the next week, but instead we are down to $50 and my car is running on empty!!!

Rather than lash out and tell him what I really thought I simply talked to him about being a partnership and how I need him to help me achieve the goals that we set and staying within budget so that we can achieve the holiday that we so desperately want to go to in May 2011. He was very receptive and I could see that he was dissappointed in himself and gosh it was tempting to tell him how dissappointed I was with him and yell at him to express my anger, but I withheld it and instead was very quiet for the rest of the morning that we spent together.

After organising the cheques and dropping them off at the solicitor, he dropped me off at work, while he ran a few other errands, it wasn't until he came back from his appointments that I was ready to talk to him, I had calmed down by then and realised that we all stuff up and yelling, ranting and raving really would not have achieved anything.

Deep down I still feel a bit down about being let down but I will get over it. I think sometimes small things bother me in a magnified manner because of my depression. I realise that and acknowledge it and my husband understands it too, so he is very forgiving.

Now that I'm home, I'm tired, I'm in pain as I have a sore back and it is agony to be walking around, so basically I washed up the dishes, gave the kids a couple of small chores to do each and now I'm sitting on my bed resting. I won't be doing much else and the kids have realised that I'm not well and are staying away, at the moment there is peace because Amber is outside playing, Nat is doing her chores and Blake is playing computer games. I'm sure this is the calm before the storm but I live in hope that it will be a good night....here's hoping.